Monday, December 11, 2006

Quiz fun

Oh, and online quizzes also do not suck.
Your results:
You are Daniel Jackson



















Daniel Jackson
92%
Thor
70%
Jack O'Neill
65%
Dr. Frasier
60%
Samantha Carter
45%
Teal'c
20%
General Hammond
20%
A Goa'uld
10%
You are sensitive to the needs of
others and are a good communicator.
You always stand up for the little guy.


Click here to take the Stargate SG-1 Personality Quiz



Right. I think we all saw that coming. Of course, that was Pre-Ascension Daniel. Post-Ascension Daniel is way less nerdy.

Your results:
You are Jean-Luc Picard
































Jean-Luc Picard
65%
Will Riker
60%
Deanna Troi
60%
James T. Kirk (Captain)
50%
An Expendable Character (Redshirt)
50%
Spock
40%
Geordi LaForge
40%
Chekov
25%
Beverly Crusher
25%
Leonard McCoy (Bones)
20%
Mr. Scott
20%
Uhura
20%
Data
10%
Worf
10%
Mr. Sulu
0%
A lover of Shakespeare and other
fine literature. You have a decisive mind
and a firm hand in dealing with others.


Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Quiz



Yes. That's me. An old bald white guy. Right.

Your results:
You are Spider-Man
























Spider-Man
85%
Superman
70%
Green Lantern
70%
Supergirl
55%
Batman
50%
Hulk
50%
Catwoman
50%
Wonder Woman
35%
Robin
35%
The Flash
20%
Iron Man
20%
You are intelligent, witty,
a bit geeky and have great
power and responsibility.


Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...




Again, I rate as "dude." Should I be worried? Perhaps it's time to get out a skirt and shout "I'm a GIRL" again?

Things that don't suck so much

During Finals week, we tend to hyperbolize. The scope of the universe shrinks, and the real Theory of Everthing seems to have something to do with our paper on Jane Austen and the Wagon Wheel (that's a joke for Emily Allen). To remind myself that this is just school, I've compiled a list of things that don't suck.
Things that don't suck

  • My cat, Kit. Yes, that's right. She's a "KitCat" because she's so sweet. And because thats the name of the Familiar on Charmed, who was also grey. As I write my papers, she leans her head on the edge of the laptop, on the blank area by the mouse. And purrs.

  • Coffee. Coffee good. Today I had a (guess!?) Venti Iced Almond Latte (Vial) from the drive thru Starbucks out at the new shopping center on Creasy Lane. Yeah, a long way to drive, but I did it in my old Wit sweatshirt and pj bottoms, so who can complain? Also good: ERC's house blend. And ERC's espresso. And ERC's teas--happy yerba matte.

  • Harry Potter. Specifically, HP fanfiction. It's a good thing there are more than 270,000 fics on fanfiction.net, because I'm insatiable. Even assuming the 3% rule (97% of fanfiction is written by 14 year old girls who can't spell or create a plot), that leaves us with 8,100 good fics. Get reading.

  • Bad movies, good friends. Dana has arranged for a bad movie night, like the one we held this summer. The feature will be Attack of the Bimbos, which Dana and Reuben are giving to AmERICa (Amanda and Eric) as a Christmas present. I will do a review of the Film here. Maybe. If I ever stop laughing.

  • The Recycle Bin. I finally ran out of space on my thumbdrive, and decided that instead of buying a new one (cause they're so expensive?) I'd delete some obsolete files. After getting rid of things labeled "misc notes" that no longer mean anything, and removing some strange icons that got downloaded when I did my disability studies paper, and combining some notes into one file, I managed to clear 10,000 KBs. This will still not be enough for me to download all my students' papers, though, so I guess I'm hitting Best Buy tomorrow. The point was, it was exciting to remove unwanted files, and to remove that which means nothing. Too bad it's not easy to do that with the rest of life.

  • Jeremy Tirrell. Not a joke. Why? Because he was supposed to remove all Drupal websites from Fall 2005 last week, and he didn't. Why is this good? Because all of the files from my Rhetoric of Science class are still online for download. Why is this good? Because I went looking for the ones I had printed out, and I was missing not only pages, but the names of the authors. Jeremy's lack of time saved me a good three hours on Google Scholar, which also does not suck.

  • Sleep. Sleep does not suck, so I'm told. It is now 1:27 EST (damn Indiana legislature!), and despite being mostly finished with my work, I am up blogging. The cat is, of course, asleep, and yet somehow looking annoyed that I am not laying down so she can inhabit her space on my neck. My insomnia keeps her up too--all the tossing and turning means she has to keep changing positions. When she gets into a deep sleep, she twitches and growls...just like her mommy.

  • And finally, Animal Planet. Not just because it is an entire channel devoted to things furry, feathery, and fin-ny (yeah, FinFeatherFur), but because they don't have any of those annoying Paid Programs. Ever. All night long, there is something "real" on Animal Planet. Sure, it might be the Eukaneuba Tournament of Champions from 1998, but at least there's a droning voice. The History Channel has the nerve to go off from 4:00 to 7:00. Bastards.

  • And that's as close as I'll ever get to Christmas cheer. Bah Humbug, and Happpy Kwanzaa to all.

    Wednesday, December 06, 2006

    "Dead" Week

    It's Dead Week again, that period of time between coursework and finals when everything seems to fall apart at once: computers, papers, bodies. Perhaps renaming the week would prevent this, as well as prevent the constant zombie jokes.
    Then again, we all love zombies, almost as much as we love pirates.
    The insomnia from hell has returned. Some of you may think, "Well, that's good! You can get a lot of your work done!" Fools. You obviuosly have not had such insomnia before.
    The thing about insomnia, as is said in Fight Club is that you're never actually asleep, and you're never really awake. It's this theta-alpha wave crest you ride as you watch the sun rise and set around you. The television glows an electronic, sterile blue, and even my cat seems to be annoyed that I won't just stay still in one position and sleep. Work? Yeah, right. Zombies have eaten my brain. Everything looks like it was shot using a soft lens.
    The kids over at the Libertarian Socialists are on their third week without food, and some are in the hospital. Dead Week, indeed. The eternal semester collapses on us, like time dilation gone wrong, everything necessary squeezed into a few days, hyper-concentrated. Who says that 16 weeks is the perfect amount of time to ingest, digest, and assimilate content? What if some of us need 17 weeks? Or less? The artificial barriers are created by holidays that none of us understand anymore. No one really wants to go home for the holidays, not here in the grad lab.
    There's a reason we went to grad school. And it had only a little to do with intellectual curiosity.
    Of course, you say, "You could have been working on these papers all semester!" True. I could also organize my clothing by color, and give exact change to the cashier at Starbucks. Possible, but not probable. It's not in our natures.
    Alas, we find the edge of time again. And it is December 12th. X-files lied.

    Wednesday, November 29, 2006

    Cassandra

    Cassandra
    he has changed her skin with those fingertips they carve his name so only she can read their secret this brief candle and the sound of its hissing extinguish
    he has charged her with those fingernails that purr just behind her ear an unzipping sound of her skull from her skin or her mind from his
    he has chanced this one last second to glance up white reflecting glasses screening they count the atoms between them so slowly she has time to gasp

    In the hurricane in the shelters they lay wet with pain like sponges
    In the siren they hear each other perfectly they lay limp with words

    she has marked his face with her carved skin all she does is stay here so the future's set in drying clay it cracks when struck by lightening
    she has masked his face with her own smirk just beneath the foaming surf beside the pillared monument the dead ring their hellos to them
    she has marred this one last second with crosses at wrong angles the damn spot fizzles in the waves it inflames like spilled oil



    Itch to scratch

    not known long enough to say this
    all the paper will burn
    all the cities will fall
    she is certain as the water is of rain

    its written somewhere
    snakes will crawl up poles
    angel wings will molt
    So say the spirits we don't believe in

    oh plastic towers far too high
    oh paint, and tin, and steel
    ink and data and cloth
    she is certain all will be lost tomorrow

    on the seashore i'm waiting for the initial flash
    at the edge of the land it is quicksand

    Monday, November 20, 2006

    CFP: Crazy Frakin People

    On Thursday last, I joined the MLA. To join this prestigious organization, one must pay $30 (as a graduate student) and hit "send."
    Not hyperbole.
    I also signed up for the National Communication Association's listserv. The result is that between 4 p.m. Saturday and 3 p.m. Monday I received nearly 200 emails from various academic organizations. And two from someone trying to sell me Viagra.
    The mess in my inbox servs (sic) to remind me that while dissemination has become easier, communication has not. I blog, Kari blogs, Lou blogs, we all blog, but the text has no "rhetorical life" (Jeanne Fahnestock). I could put in a plea here for just about any cause, I could write about clowns eating Kashi cereal, I could make non-sense rhymes and call it poetry, but it wouldn't be rhetorical. There would be "rhetoricity" but without audience, without feedback, it isn't rhetoric.
    The CFPs pile up, repeat themselves, hail the same acamedics in the same institutions. Is it any surprise that I can find at least three Purdue English Graduate Students at any conference in the States? We say the same things, we give our same Schpiels (needs caps), we parade our same (usually Burkeian) theories to the same crowds. Over and over and over. We cite the same authors, read the same "hot" new books, leap on the same academic bandwagon--same routine, different hotels, differnt cities. Different "organizations" set aside for "different" purposes that all seem about the same to me.
    Which is why I got two CFPs--one from the MLA, one from some regional rhetorical studies confernece--on "the backlash" against feminism. The same backlash I've been hearing about since 1995. Let's cite Eve Sedgewick. Let's quote Judith Butler. Let's say the same old things in a different town with newer representative texts. The
    "backlash" in graphic novels. The backlash in blogging. The backlash in text messaging. Pick a text, any text, apply theory, eat some gourmet cheese, go home.
    I'm not complaining that what we do is pointless. No, I think there are quite a few points that arise at said conferences, new ideas, new relationships forged, new side projects to think about. I love the sharing atmosphere. What bothers me is the sheer volume of CFPs, of conferences, of journals. The proliferation of texts makes it seem like we're going somewhere, but we still keep retreating back to the same old sources. I can go to any MLA conference and, upon hearing the thesis statement of a paper, know exactly how the paper will read, what points will be made, what evidence cited. Emily is right in saying that the Q&A afterwards is why people really go to conferences. Because everything before that is just review.
    How many conferences do we need? How many panels can we have before we stretch ourselves too thin? Is there any sense of "expertise" any more?
    I better be careful before someone turns my questions into a conference theme. Then again, someone probably already has.

    Friday, November 17, 2006

    Laming the ducks

    In Bluffton, there were always rumors--call them non-urban legends--about the ducks in the Riley Creek bed. "Duckies!" Lou, Kari, and I said as we crossed Adams bridge outside Ropp. Indeed, the duckies were cute, and unlike a lot of wild fowl, had actual personalities.
    There were the "gang-raping duck" stories, the "duck-eating-duckling" stories, the dive-bombing ducks, the loud ducks that got up way before any of us, and the ducks that skated gracefuly across a late frosting-over of the creek. Yippee for nature.
    But no where did we have lame ducks. Lame squirrels, yes (insert anecdote about the Satanic Squirrel here). But the ducks always seemed to have agency. Well, as much agency as a duck needs, anyway. They never looked hungry, they never looked lonely; mostly, they just looked content.
    According to the OED online, the phrase "lame duck" originally was a Stock Exchange slang term for someone who couldn't pay his or her (okay, "his") debts. Elsehwhere,

    lame duck, (a) (see DUCK n.1 9); (b) U.S. Politics, an office-holder who is not, or cannot be, re-elected; spec. (before 1933), a defeated member in the short session of Congress after a November election; also attrib.; (c) a ship that is damaged, esp. one left without a means of propulsion; (d) an industry, commercial firm, etc., that cannot survive without financial help, esp. by means of a government subsidy; hence as v. trans. (rare), to help (a disabled person); to lame-duck it: to travel with difficulty; to come by the lame post: (of news, etc.) to be behind time.


    Bush is now a "lame duck" president because he has little to no hope of passing anything through the "New" Congress. But, as analysts point out, this time, the lameness is actually dangerous: with this stalemate, little will be done to change the situation in Iraq quickly, leaving hundreds of soldiers and officers in highly volatile areas. And there are two years to go to the '08 elections, despite all the press about them.

    Will we sit for two years in limbo? Or will McCain's call for a 'rational' GOP be heard? With everyone clammoring to be called "centrist" will any good be done? Just because it's the middle position does not make it the right one (contrary to Aristotelean philosophy).

    Someone should remind Jon Stewart of that...

    Thursday, November 09, 2006

    Fun with Anagrams

    Anagram fun
    Some of my favorites...
    Amy Clemons
    MY SON CAMEL
    CALM ME NOSY
    CLAMMY NOSE
    CLAMMY ONES
    CALMS MEN, YO
    CLAN: YES, MOM
    COMA MEN SLY
    MY NOEL SCAM
    SCAM ME ONLY
    MY LAME CONS
    MY MALE CONS
    SLAM COY MEN
    MY MA'S CLONE
    MAY CON ELMS
    How Apt!

    Bluffton College

    CUBE FELL FLOG NOT
    CLUBFOOT ELF GLEN (the best!)
    NO BLOC FLEET GULF
    BLOC LEFT ONE GULF
    CLUB ELF: LEFT, GO ON
    OFT NO ELF CLUB LEG
    CLUB ELF GONE LOFT (headline for dorm room?)
    BE COGENT! LULL BE OFF !
    BE CLEFT FULL GOON
    BE COOL FLUNG LEFT (A comment on politics?)
    BEFELL CLOT OF GUN (not sure what that means, but it works)
    BELONG CLEFT FOUL
    GLOBE CON FELT FLU
    NOBLE CULT ELF FOG
    BUT GOLF ONCE FELL

    Lamar Nisly

    ALARM IN SLY
    MANLY LIARS
    ALL ARMY SIN
    SMALL RAY IN
    MA RAN SILLY
    ARMS ANY ILL (oh, really?)

    Kari Sommers
    MAKER OR MISS
    ROAMERS SKIM
    EAR IRKS MOMS
    SAKI ERRS MOM
    MARK ISOMERS
    OKRA SIMMERS
    AMMO RE RISKS

    Laura Beth Amstutz

    BAZAAR SLEUTH MUTT
    AMBULATE TZAR TUSH
    AMAZE TUBAL TRUTHS (Um?)
    BATHE MUTUAL TZARS
    ZEBRAS THAT UMLAUT

    Diane Hull
    A NUDE HILL
    (no need for more)

    Graduate Student
    A UNDERSTATED TUG
    ATTENUATED DRUGS
    ADAGE TURNED TUTS
    GRADUATES NUTTED
    GRADUATE STUNTED
    DATA TENURED TUGS
    STAGNATE TRUE DUD
    AURA GUTTED DENTS
    ADD TAUNT GESTURE
    DEAD ASTUTE GRUNT
    ATTENDED AT GURUS
    UNGUARDED AT TEST
    DARNED ASTUTE GUT
    UNDATED GATE RUST
    DAUNTED, RAGES TUT
    DANGER TAUT DUETS
    GRATED DEANS TUTU
    STATED NUT ARGUED
    STAGED TAD UNTRUE

    Cultural Studies
    CURTAILED LUST US (feminist studies)
    SAUCIEST DULL RUT (the problem with Foucault)
    LACES LURID TUTUS (Cultural Materialism)
    CURATES DULL SUIT (Pop culture?)
    LILAC STUD UTERUS (Queer theory)
    CURTAILS DUE SLUT (Ditto)
    TACT DULL USURIES (Marx)
    AID CULTURES, SLUT (the command I received)
    LAUDS RUSTIC LUTE (post colonialism)
    DUAL CULTURES SIT (borderland studies)
    RITUALS CULT USED (Rene Girard)
    USUAL CRUD TITLES (How we write)

    Rhetorical Theory
    HOT ROIL TREACHERY
    HIERARCHY ROOTLET
    ETHICAL YET HORROR
    ACHIER HOLY RETORT
    THEIR HOLY REACTOR
    OTHER CLARITY HERO
    REHEAR RICHLY TOOT


    And, finally
    Jacques Derrida
    DEAD JAR SQUIRE
    JADED QUARRIES
    JADES RARE QUID
    ARID QUADS JEER


    Burke would call this a practice of "perspective by incongruity." (CYBERNETICS GIVE UNITY PROP). It's a way of realizing other aspects of a concept by rearranging its components. In doing so, we should avoid stagnation and create new grammars of motive ("CHIEF ROOSTER VOMIT").
    Or something like that.

    Wednesday, October 25, 2006

    Limbaugh confirmed a$$hole

    Two news stories today caught my attention as I wasted the hours between class and teaching. The first you can access by clicking the title of this blog (at least for a few weeks).
    Limbaugh confirmed as asshole
    Monday during his all-too-popular radio show, Rush Limbaugh said the following of actor and activist Michael J Fox: "He is exaggerating the effects of the disease," Limbaugh told listeners.

    He's moving all around and shaking and it's purely an act. . . . This is really shameless of Michael J. Fox. Either he didn't take his medication or he's acting.

    This is the end of Disability Education Awareness Month, and Limbaugh obviously is not aware of the reality of chronic ilness. Nor is the editor of our lovely Exponent who stated in his editorial last week that Purdue is doing a good job paying attention to the architectural difficulties of our campus and is thus "aware." But making changes to architecture is only the beginning of disability awareness--just because access is "granted" to those of us with mobility issues, doesn't mean that the access is good or convenient access. It means that we have met the minimum criteria to be considered accessible. It certainly doesn't mean that this is a friendly environment for students with disabilities--instead, it means the administration can wipe its hands clean of the issue and pat itself on the back. The *real* problems that come with a disability are never addressed.
    Limbaugh's comments make sense, given that most people do not understand the daily reality of those living with "impairments" (many quotation marks throughout). No, Fox doesn't shake continually, but that doesn't mean that he is faking during those times he does have to abandon control for awhile. Chronic illness is not constant, it is not eternal, it is not homogenous minute to minute. It is always shifting with the multiple constraints of each given situation.
    I don't have to admonish Limbaugh; his comments are just plain insensitive, not just to Fox, but to all of us with neurological problems.

    Tuesday, October 24, 2006

    Reversion: Control and Mastery

    Yes, I have been absently absent digitally. Note to self: Never schedule major presentations and papers to be due during midterms and your birthday.

    In our Victorian Literature class, Emily Allen was surprised at the lack of ability to do a close reading among graduate students. I flashed back to my first close reading ever, on Blake's poem about the chimney sweep. My reading was pedantic, but at least it was a close reading: I interpreted the adjectives used, the line breaks, the form of the poem, and its allusions.
    I'd never even consider that as a valide essay now.
    We have become so immersed in "cultural studies" in the loosest sense of the term that we have forgotten the main methods of our field. Even the great scholars in literary theory spend so much time contextualizing that their "close readings" seem to be simply quotations with a nod toward the reader: Look at this quote. We all know how to read it. Now let's see how Dickens' financial situation influenced his use of the word "miser" here.
    This is not a close reading. Instead, the sort of close reading and mastery over the text that the New Critics provided us with has been shunted aside; perhaps because we are loathe to remember the ideology from which close reading emerged. The "empirical" feel to close reading and the New Critics' attempts to scientize literary studies makes us very uncomfortable. And so close reading becomes one technique among many, and not the primary goal of an interpretation.
    I won't say whether this is right or wrong in general (as a rhetorician, I cannot speak for the literary critics), but to me this feels irresponsible. As Professor Burleson so naively says in my communication studies class, the point of literary studies is to "understand" (another word we hesitate on) the work in front of us. And that means a certain mastery over, control over, the text itself which we in this postmodern non-arboreal, anti-hierarchical context cringe at. We say we are doing a "violence" to a text when we "mark" it (Bartholomae, Ways of Reading introduction and Derrida, Acts of Literature). The instant we comment on it, the text is no longer "the" text--it mutates and becomes something else, Derrida says. This may be true: My marks on Wordsworth's "Prelude" have made it very different from the original text. And I certainly intend to do a violence to it by leaving my own mark upon the history of that text and its various meanings.
    But I do this through what I call a "rhetorical" analysis--and rhetorical analysis is not afraid of close reading. Rhetorical analysis seeks to master the text and its life in the real world. Rhetorical analysis looks at possible intent, possible effects, possible meanings: it is forceful and assumptive, and until recently was unapologetic about making statements such as "Women are drawn to softer colors; therefore, O'Keefe's painting is aimed toward the feminine understanding." We make assumptions about the meaning of an italicized word, about the use of a comma, about the need for a border around an advertisement based on the commonplaces of our given society. It's Aristotelian, it's Burkiean, it's whitemale.
    Other than the types of questions asked, a "close reading" done for literary studies is no different from one done in rhetorical studies. I wonder why our students--and, it seems, grad students--do not seem to have the procedures embedded in their brains. (Of course, I didn't have those in there until I took Lamar's Intro to Lit and Sue's Mass Media class in the same semester and began noticing overlaps). Do we fear so much to master a text that we have abandoned the notion of getting "close" to a text?
    I sound like a conservative East Coast literature person, I know. But cultural studies is not a method for getting at a text's meaning--it's a method of getting at a text's culture, it's ideologies, it's seeds and progeny. We have only one method of attempting to understand meaning, and that's through close reading. It may be a reversion of sorts, but it doesn't have to be. You can still use the methods of close reading and assert a multiplicity of views at once. You can make the large assumptions that rhetorical theory requires (thanks so much, Aristotle et al) and still acknowledge that for any given culture or individual, these readings might not be the same. There doesn't have to be an air of empirical certainty to your reading; nor is it avoidable to do the violence to the text that Derrida describes (in fact, he doesn't lament that we do this violence--I'd argue he simply points it out).
    The mixed methodologies of cultural studies (in its formal sense) allows us to use whatever we can get our hands on in order to explain a given rhetorical situation. To do so, we examine texts and their interaction with the context in which they are created. We must read the texts a culture produces just as much as we should the research economics, ecololgy, material conditions, interpersonal relationships, etc that were available in that time. If the time is a present time, we should empirically research the attitudes towards an idea, towards a text, towards a statement and catalogue for future generations our understandings of this data. How do people feel about dystopian films? What explanations are commonly given for reading 1984? And then, what about Brave New World's construction, content, or style might be appealing to high school teachers so that it ends up on syllabi? How does the text argue for change, and how does that argument reflect the conditions in which Huxley was writing? What other treatises were available that same year, and how were those formally constructed? What genre conventions are present in these novels, and how do those conventions transfer to film? How is the hero represented, and how do audiences feel about that hero when they actually are reading? Close reading mixes with historical research and can blend in empirical, qualitative, attitudinal studies. (And it will).
    Literature meets rhetoric in the text itself. A true rhetorical theory of fiction (sorry Booth, you didn't go far enough) would combine all of the elements above. And I believe that literature studies needs rhetorical studies right now (and perhaps vice versa), as we make the so-called "ethical turn" in literary theory. The ethical turn is concerned with the text's relationship to the reader and how much the text imposes upon the reader's values and selfhood. How can we possibly understand that without understanding how to read, and how a text is carefully constructed affectively (toward affect)?
    As I read attempts at close readings, I keep thinking that if these critics had knowledge of rhetorical theory and methods they wouldn't be working so hard to make claims about "style". What is missing from close reading is a mastery of reading as an act that takes place in time and space. Burke's methods of criticism--if we can call them methods--seem to me the perfect blend of the literary and the rhetorical senses of close reading. He examines not only what happens as a reader reads, but looks at other uses of the metaphors in question over the lifetime of the author. He looks at how a sentence moves the reader from one idea to the next--how ideas get transformed and speculates, based on contextual information why an author would write such a transformation. He imagines what a reader "learns" or gains from a text as to why some texts become canonical or popular. He theorizes the connection between author and reader as one taking place in an undefined space that both share--shared values, common vocabulary, communal traditions and rituals that make two seem like one. And only then does he (begin to) consider larger social movements.
    Literary studies tends to do this backward: the context is selected and then applied to the text. Good studies look at the give and take between text and context, but rarely do we see the close attention to each individual word and punctuation that Burke would have us do. His reading of "Ode on a Grecian Urn" is considered masterful by literary critics (traditional!) and rhetorical critics alike because it is such a close reaidng, not only of the text, but of the texts surrounding Keats at that time.
    In order to write my dissertation, I am going to have to argue for a Burkeian methodology for literary studies. Few, if any, have tried to extrapolate what that methodology might look like, had Burke ever set a literary "program" as he did a rhetorical one. And I will use dystopian fiction as an exemplar to make this argument, showing how texts--especially modern ones--inflitrate so many areas of culture (and, of course, that it is important to study the arguments these texts make) that it is necessary to adopt a different approach to literature. Mastery of a text doesn't just mean exploring a context. It doesn't just mean doing a close reading. Mastery involves all those moves that Burke makes in his readings of literature that few have been able to replicate since then.
    The question is, can I do it?

    Reversion

    six shots of espresso later and i'm still yawning
    dawn is no closer than the last repeat of the cd
    --can i call it a daydream when it's still night--
    bloody cardinals and inky jays and muddy hawks
    skirt the edges of the heavy parts of the air
    that settled just above here last night
    it's weighted with water to drown out the pain

    musty carpets and bathrobes smell like before
    (before i left for eastern pastures)
    our insubstantial consubstantial murmurings at dinner
    --we can call it immediate for now--
    mixed elves wtih oily corn, love with silk shirts
    the stones we leaped in the fog, in a waltz
    reeked old dampness from the creek and the dew

    elastic in my veins is like (mutatis mutandis)
    when love was so easy (sine qua non)

    Monday, September 11, 2006

    Article on Dystopian Structures

    Openning grafs of an article for Crossings.

    If we take seriously Lacan's notion of the symbolic order, that which puts a screen over the Real, and Kaja Silverman's the idea that all narratives are about apocalypse, then it makes sense to study the ways in which we represent dystopia to ourselves. Apocalyptic writings have long been temporal paradoxes: John of Patmos's Revelation is just one example of the genre which writes present dystopian scenes as future apocalypses. Verbal tense issues aside, "time" in apocalyptic literature--and thus in dystopian literature-- tends to lack the linnear nature, the causality we traditionally use to order events in history. Dystopian literature, as a generic hybrid of science fiction and the literature of social criticism, uses this tradition of temporal tinkering as the main rhetorical technique in its warnings. Memory, nostaligia, and narrative order in dystopian fiction form the exigency upon which the rest of the argument of the text rests. Nowhere is this phenomenon used so efficiently as in LeGuin's The Dispossessed, Haruki Murikami's Hardboiled Wonderland and the End of the World, and Atwood's most recent dystopia, Oryx and Crake.
    Peter Brooks describes the nature of narrative as an "arabesque," a squiggle representing turns and twists that prevent the story from ending prematurely. As Dino Felluga explains, "Brooks argues that we are driven to read because of our drive to find meaningful, bounded, totalizing order to the chaos of life; however, that drive for order is most fulfilling after the detours or dilations that we associate with plot. If the order of closure comes too soon, it can feel like a short-circuit, as if we were cheated somehow" ("Modules on Brooks: On Narrative Desire"). Borrowing from the Formalists, Brooks distinguishes between szujet and fabula, story (as the events happened in a linear time), and discourse, (events as they are retold). The difference is important for Brooks: discourse is the artistic, rhetorical method by which we attempt to make sense of our past. In Kenneth Burke's terms, narrative is the symbolic action that gives us "equipment for living;" in his opening pages of Rhetoric of Motives, Burke describes how writing about killing a person, is really "killing the principle which that person represents." Narrative, writing, for Brooks and Burke (and, to an extent, Freud), is not only theraputic, but is a necessary part of human existence. It is what defines us as human, as Burke notes in his "Definition of (hu)Man". Smbolic action is how we not only communicate and re-present reality to ourselves--is not "mere rhetoric"--but is the fundamental action of humanity. Literature of all types is aware of that fact and dystopian literature makes explicit to its readers the possible impact of the narratives we create for each other. Dystopian literature is as much about the possibilities of narrative as it is an exercise in didactic writing.
    LeGuin's "ambiguous utopia", Murakami's dreamworld/real world split, and Atwood's schizophrenic narrator take out many of the neat divisions the first dystopian novels (We, 1984,Fahrenheit 451> depended on. Instead, the novels create a different binary than Dystopia/Utopia; each of these novels split time into a "before dystopic event" and "after dystopic event," alternating their chapters between the two times until the "before" meets up with the moment of the "after" the novel begins with. Structurally, the story is divided in halves, and invites contrast between the times. As the heroes' consciousness shifts in each time, the audience is given certain insights, many of which remain unexplained until the two halves meet up. This is not Brooks's squiggly line; the timelines are broken to the reader, and simple causality is denied.
    There are many fictions dealing with trauma that make such rhetorical moves. This particular rhetorical move depends upon what Brooks calls "narrative desire"--the tensions a reader and teller experience as the story is transformed to discourse. The desire for knowledge about the trauma, to put it "into words," to tame the real with the symbolic order, drives these novels. Even the 9/11 commission report uses such a structure; instead of including the "after," however, we are asked to supply that on our own. Still, the report fills in our desire to make the traumatic events of that day meet up with our current experience, and despite its dry writing, the report sold millions of copies. The desire to narrate and the desire for narrative--to enter into symbolic action--is the lynchpin of many discourses, fiction and nonfiction.
    What makes dystopian literature special, then? Why does 1984 still evoke such a strong response, despite the change of context? Why does Big Brother haunt our collective consciousnesses? Why is there a strong desire among academics to separate dystopian fiction from the ghettoized genre of scifi?

    Wednesday, August 30, 2006

    Wednesday Class: Fun in the Computer Lab

    First 15-20 minutes of class

  • Click link above and log in

  • Watch video clip. Take notes either on your computer, or with the traditional method (pen and paper. Not stone and chisel.)

  • Respond for 5 minutes, free writing into your blog space

  • Watch again, amending your notes when necessary

  • Revise your free writing into a coherent blog

  • Read someone else's blog. Make a comment so you all feel loved

  • Second 20 minutes of class
  • Pair up with someone new. Work at one computer. (Fastest typer gets the privilege of keyboard control).

  • Turn to page 270-280, also keep open 402-403.

  • Go to This Website

  • Use your knowledge of ethos and pathos, and the "seven" things you need to think about when composing a text (I added more, remember?) to analyze the page. You might choose to focus on one aspect (such as the kinds of audiences or the genre) to make a claim or argument about what the page is doing or how it is doing it. Type up your comments, working together to create at least a paragraph.

  • Post it to one of your blogs--Mark it as a joint venture. This will not count toward your requirement.

  • Assignment for Thursday: Read CDA p.329-346

    Sunday, August 27, 2006

    neither/nor

    Kennedy, George. Classical Rhetoric and Its Christian and Secular Tradition.

    Primary Rhetoric. Civic Rhetoric. Technical Rhetoric. Philosophic Rhetoric. If we break it down enough times, will we arrive at a definition that would satisfy even the Socrates of Gorgias?
    Defining "rhetoric" or "communication" or "oratory" is practically a clichéd move in academia. How many classes have I had in rhetoric which started off asking us, in small groups, to try to write a definition? Each time it happens, I groan a little deeper, feel a little more frustrated, become more convinced that there is no good answer, that every answer is itself a rhetorical move (what does that mean?) meant to fulfill the ontological requirements of a university course. What is it that you're doing in your field?
    And we say the word "constructed" as though it's very flimsy-ness could save us.
    In Kennedy's history (overview? handbook?), I can see the threads that provide the base of our assumptions, our grounding of the universe. What is valued, what is given status as Real, what is appropriate to love. The poet-prophet didn't emerge suddenly in Romanticism, popping out of Worsdworth's head like the Robot on FLCL; it was coddled, protected, tended like a rare flower, set to bloom at the right time, throbbing underneath us the whole time. The philosopher-kings who will save us in Plato's The Republic were the forerunners to the poets who staved off dystopia during the Revolutionary upheavals of the 18th and 19th centuries. The rhetoric of dystopia is tied to the origins of rhetoric itself: as a political, civil tool, rhetoric shaped "Western" states and communities. Rhetoric is steeped in the goal of attaining the ideal, of receiving justice, ordering relationships among citizens. U/Dystopian rhetoric feels so didactic because its concerns are the same as those were when rhetoric was at its origins. It is what we know, and what we know well, what we Compositionists teach our students to see in the advertisements of magazines and TV shows.
    I see it forming even in the dialogue Gorgias, the commonplaces that get transformed into plotlines in 1984, Fahrenheit 451, Brave New World. And I have to wonder: Are there African dystopias? Chinese? Middle Eastern? Of course, the apocalyptic narrative is as old as Judaism, but what of the focus that makes it uniquely dystopian: the desire that the text itself will change the future? That writing dystopian cities prevents their existance? Or is dystopia only possible because of its ties to rhetoric and logic, the need for binary oppositions and the privileging of the mind over the body?
    In postmodernism, we revel at our "progress" past these definitions. A fictional place may be both utopian and dystopian, or neither/nor. Topian. But our ability to think out of these (Ursula Le Guin's The Dispossessed, Margaret Atwood's The Handmaid's Tale, cyberpunk in general) is not so much a triumph of Derridian deconstruction and an evolving sophistication of thought as it is a haphazzared break from an ontological prison created by Plato and Friends a few thousand years ago. Thanks, Plato. Had we stuck with the Sophists, it is likely dystopian fiction as we know it would have never been written. Certainly the rhetorical strategies used to convince readers to embark upon social change would have been quite different. It is likely that literary style as a whole would be quite different. Imagine 1984 written not with the tone of desperation and suspense leading up to a climax, but the continual ebb and flow of tension, the stylistics of the Sophists making hell not just from description but from the rhythm and sounds of the words themselves. Imagine if "context" had been privileged throughout history, and relativism had come into our consciousness not via Albert Einstein's mathematical proofs, but as a cultural assumption just as firm as our belief in science.
    And what do we do with that shaky category of text called "narrative"? Is narrative, as the early rhetoricians believed, a part of (tool of?) a larger rhetoric? Is narrative a style of speaking, of ordering information? Does it belong in the middle of an argument, as a method of support? As a rhetorical technique, is narrative outside the realm of the analysable?
    Or, is narrative, rhetorical itself; always/already constructed with a careful beginning, middle, end, styled to an audience's taste, and contingent upon context? Perhaps my trouble with distinction is a historical one: When did narrative stop being a part of a larger rhetorical construct, and begin to be able to act on its own, without the appeals to the gods, the statement of purpose, the address to the audience, that Aristotle and others pre/describe? How did narrative get to stand alone--how, over time, did audiences become so accustomed to the commonplaces of rhetoric that we could skip all that beginning framing stuff and jump right to the story? And how do children today learn those assumptions? Are we yet trapped within our topoi? Is that why there hasn't been any new genres of literature in a few hundred years, only hybrids of existing ones?
    How the hell do you get an entire world to change its generic expectations so that new types of argument and new methods of rhetoric can come into being?
    What is rhetoric? What is communication? We could dwell on categorizations and qualifications of our terms. We could theorize the limits of human understanding, of identification, of brain chemistry and language. But these questions are themselves constructed questions, being important only in so far was we're told they're important, they've always been important. Etc. But I agree with Levinas, that there must be questions prior to ontological ones--not What is X?
    Not What is the nature of Y? We've been trying to answer these questions ever since the Greeks woke up one morning and started a republic dependent on speaking. We all know what we're doing, we all have an implicit, intuitive sense of what rhetoric and oratory are--even Plato admits this in Gorgias. But to actually define it, in sentence form, with all qualifications and complications is a stupid, exhausting, and fruitless enterprise. We're asking the wrong questions for this context.
    That's what I learned at Bluffton, I think. That the questions most academics ask will take us only so far: the limit of ontology is, for the moment, the sphere of the academy. If we want to move beyond the academy, we have to stop asking "to be" questions, and ask "For whom?" The "surprsing" move toward ethics (the "ethical turn" that comes after the "cultural turn" and the "rhetorical turn") isn't surprising at all. The dystopian threads that permeate everyting (according to me, according to Jameson, according to Booker), require that we take notice of where we are. Of what we're doing. And of how these texts keep pushing at us, being determinative. Even before our "post-9/11 world" dystopia was startlingly present, and dystopia has always concerned the relationship of the individual to the many, of self to state. Foucault showed us that we're living in dystopia and that we happily consent to it.
    So pay attention: dystopia is utopia and utopia is dystopia. The difference is in the stories we tell about them. As I told Pam Nath three years ago, "It's all just words."

    Thursday, August 10, 2006

    Thoughts while on 3A

    Guardian
    He never cared about the hole by her temple. An open space to worship near the sacred concrete. Here they could both stare at something else for awhile.
    She always paused before entering into this contract. Head slightly cocked to the left, suspending words like marionets. She was the type of person to theorize each brick in the wall.
    He turned his head away when she fell every morning. The ritual failure caught just enough to be unseen. She cried and rubbed the hole by the temple for hope tomorrow.
    He piled the softness around her ankles more each afternoon. His halo made dimmer for her bright eyes. The pair scuffled, waded in cloth and silk and light.
    She saw him as two people become one in her dreams. Lips poised at the ready to spur on great works of man. She closed her door so he wouldn't hear her pray.

    Thursday, July 27, 2006

    Fear not

    I thought Fredric Jameson had stolen my work. In a way he did; the heavy theoretical underpinnings I was trying to squeeze out in the Summer of Insanity (2004) make a neat and tidy appearance in a single chapter in his book. It would have taken me two or three. He did it in less than 30 pages.
    I thought I would have to start over again. I had become so invested in my problems with temporality and causality that I forgot that which I seem to always forget. Let me quote myself from last year:

    My thinking on it has shifted again; I realize, reading Shor's article,that I must rethink the rhetorical situation of U/dys-topian lit. That in many ways, I am correct that it is written to be received by all audiences, and that
    the general public is aware enough of the conditions of Utopia and the problems
    it could pose. In many other ways, however, I have forgotten that although
    anyone can understand the literature, few actually pick up the books to engage
    in that relationship I outlined. I need to add one more factor, one more
    causality, into my neat little equation, one which will complicate the hell out
    of things, but will clean up the ultimate problem I have with rhetorical
    criticisms in general: How is it actually received? What are the conditions that
    are behind any one reading of the text? Other than shoving the book in their
    hands and holding a gun to their heads, how do publicists convince readers to
    read? Who else, other than publicists, do this job? What other conditions
    surround the reading of dystopian texts? Utopian texts? Don't they necessarily
    assume an engaged reader? What happens when the reader is forced to read ( F451
    in high schools, for example)? What about the physical presence of the
    book? Silly Amy. How could I have overlooked such simple things? The theory, Oh, the theory....

    Yes


    These are the questions that are for me to answer; these are the Burkeian questions dealing with those beings Jameson does not seem to imagine: readers in a specific context. This is where cultural studies is most cultural: in the lived experience. That is what I will contribute; I will not contradict Jameson, but flesh out what he has left implicit, has left unsaid, or has simply ignored.
    Mojo. Hell yeah.

    Thursday, July 20, 2006

    Understanding Learning Disabilities: How Difficult Can This Be?

    Frustration
    Anxiety
    Tension

    The prepositions blend and idioms unwind. Do you turn a light “up” or “on”? Are my legs over the table or on it? Was that water passing under the bridge or the bridge going over water?

    It is the lack that tracks our eyes to the skull in the center.

    Let loose scraps of the alphabet into questions as weapons: nuclear phrases imploding over orations.

    Wednesday, July 19, 2006

    Fullmetal Alchemist: The Trauma of the Real

    If, as Baudrillard claims, the postmodern era is that which is marked by the hyperreal, the substitution of the Real with signs for the Real, an inability to access the Real because our images and symbolic structures (systems of substitution) have superseded the Real, then what can we say about those artifacts of pop culture that wish to examine the Real via substitutions, by animation or performance—that is, how do our representations which have displaced the Real now attempt to explain that which we cannot know?

    Fullmetal Alchemist is a rich text for its questioning of science, religion, and militarization. It also, however, begins to make an argument about the nature of the Real in its final episodes (48-51). When Hoenheim of Light appears to explain to Edward and Alphonse about the Philosopher’s Stone (a dense manifestation of the Real), he also hints at, but does not fully explain what exactly happened to Ed and Al when they attempted human transmutation. Edward is haunted still by the images of “The Gate” (or Door, depending on your translation) where some omnipotent Gatekeeper controls the flow between dimensions.

    Edward is isolated by his connection to the Real, his memory of the Gate which controls material and temporal existence for two worlds. Alchemy, which on Earth never yielded any fruits and was replaced by the more scientific Chemistry, flourishes in Ed and Al’s world, Amestris, and is the legitimated form of science and power. Alchemy is how the people understand their world: through Equivalent Exchange (or Trade), where “humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return,” the people (for the most part) organize their philosophies and values. Alchemy, not the hard science we know on Earth, orders language and government. Alchemists transmute everything from water to radios (never gold, however—like the Middle Ages here on earth, transmuting gold is a crime), and are the privileged class for their knowledge about the universe.

    But Ed and Al soon discover that there is more to Alchemy than drawing Transmutation Circles around the matter they wish to re-order when Ed attempts to transmute his mother’s remains into a living, souled person again. Despite drawing an intricate circle with all of the elements of fire, life, water, etc, despite using his own blood as catalyst, despite his knowledge and research, Ed fails at his attempt at human transmutation: it is not possible, he learns later, because there is no equivalent trade for a soul.

    The attempt, however, is the closest anyone has gotten in years. Ed and Al managed to create a being, a mass of flesh and bone that groaned in pain before Ed destroyed it. And that being was created because Ed’s Circle managed to open and make manifest the Gate in his barn.

    The Gate is left unexplained for most of the series. It appears as hands grabbing, little black homunculi babies with white eyes reaching for flesh—for the material of human bodies. These homunculi steal Al’s body as part of the Equivalent Exchange for his mother’s body, and use it to create the human-like homunculus named Sloth. Al’s mind is left at the Gate (this is never explained), but Edward, also at the Gate, manages to capture Al’s soul and tie it to a piece of armor by drawing a transmutation circle on the armor with his own blood.

    Ed does not escape from his encounter with the Gate unscathed. His right arm and left leg are taken by the homunculi (later given to the homunculus named Wrath) and the images of the homunculi tearing his flesh flash throughout the series in short scenes. Mostly this encounter is left as a nightmare; despite the fact that it begins the series, Ed and Al’s foray into human transmutation and the resulting encounter with the Real are left unexplored until the end of the anime, when their father, Hoenheim returns.

    When the nature of the Gate is explained as a conduit between worlds, as a transformation station of souls and matter, Edward begins to understand why human transmutation cannot work without a Philosopher’s Stone, which is itself made up of thousands of human bodies and souls, compressed into a small (blood)red gem. Edward is only 15, however, and since the series is conducted through his point of view, much is left unexplained and unsaid.

    What is explained, however, is why Edward, unlike other Alchemists, does not need a transmutation circle to do alchemy. By simply clapping his hands and thinking of what he wants to happen, Edward is able to perform alchemic changes in an instant. Transmutation circles can take minutes or hours to draw (or longer, depending on the complexity of the transformation), but Edward no longer needs to draw out the relationships between the elements he plans to use. Transmutation circles can be seen as what Baudrillard calls “the visible machinery of icons [which] substituted for the pure and intelligible idea of God” (4). In fact, Edward refuses to believe in God after his encounter with the Gate: all is material presence to him. Icons, as representation of the real which supersede the real, like Transmutation circles, are simulacra; they get in between us and the Real and in doing so erase the Real completely. For the most part, humans are happy with this.

    If Transmutation circles are simulacra that the humans of Amestris replace the Real with, it only makes sense that after his encounter with the Real at the Gate Edward no longer needs the circles to perform Alchemy. Whereas the circles mediate the Real so that Alchemists do not have to touch it (the Real, the Gate) directly, Edward’s “small inner Gate” (as Hoenheim explains) has been opened and thus Edward has immediate access to the Real. In exchange for this access, however, he loses his limbs and his ability to identify with the outside world. He becomes isolated and withdrawn, and it is only as his quest for the Philosopher’s Stone draws to an end--when he believes he may be able to stop using Alchemy someday—that he begins to reenter into the symbolic order by forgiving his father (or at least speaking to him) and hinting at his love for his childhood friend Winry.

    Iconography marked Alchemy’s period here on Earth and the images of that time are still with us. The snake and pole which were symbols for renewal and rebirth became the caduceus of medicine, the five pointed star (representing the unity of the five elements) became a satanic symbol of inversion. These symbols are now simulations and parodies of their original meanings, back when we believed we could control the material world, the Real, by recombining its elements. When we codified matter into zodiac symbols and created a sign or representation for everything. Alchemy attempted to change the material world by working with the signs that simulate it. These signs, icons, at times sacred symbols, have stayed with us and have accumulated meanings—but not materiality. Symbolicity has not led us to the Real, but has led us to erase it.

    Fullmetal Alchemist as a series resonates with us not only for its action/adventure treasure hunt for the Philosopher’s Stone or its detective story unveiling of Ed and Al’s father’s past actions, but for its attempt to explain Earth’s interaction with the Real, for our failure to conquer Alchemy. When Hoenheim explains to Ed that Earthling’s souls are the medium of transmutation, Ed is horrified: that is what he is touching when he claps his hands and imagines a transmutation, that is the purpose of the Gate—to regulate the flow of soul, body, and mind between dimensions of Being. The Gate that haunts Ed is the “desert of the real,” the unmapped, uncharted desert, the desert before we could represent it, pure materiality without symbols. The space of the Gate is white, sound echoes to an infinity, and the Gatekeeper’s being-ness is questionable. It is both nowhere and everywhere, nothing and everything, and the Truth that Ed claims to have seen there is so overwhelming it makes him sick. His father has passed through this Truth so many times that his physical body has begun to rot into its constituent molecules. Al’s mind resides somewhere there, in the inaccessable real.

    If Baudrillard is correct in his assertion that postmodernity has led us to a kind of simulacra of simulacra, a disconnect with history and space, then how do we account for paranormal TV shows that attempt to explain the Real, to recover a division between reality and fantasy, to explore textuality and symbolicity in all their complicated glory? Fullmetal Alchemist is, of course, an uncanny text: the world of Amestris is so similar to Earth, yet the presence of Alchemy makes it strange. There is a historical resonance with the Middle Ages that cannot be ignored; FMA doubles the past and places it in the present. The story of the Philosopher’s Stone is fairly well known, and this retelling is an adaptation of an original tale. And the level of representation is further complicated by the medium: FMA is an animation created from a manga text. As a member of that genre called anime, FMA simulates the ur-anime text (whatever that may be) in its stylization. And, since Alchemy is a Western tradition, and anime is an Eastern one, there is some cultural translation (itself a reproduction/simulation) that causes a strange resulting representation. All of these factors of simulation, reproduction, and translation come together in a text attempting to discover/uncover/recover the Real by breaking down symbol systems (transmutation circles, bodies, cities), yet remaining within a readable language. How then, can any text explore the Real?

    Much has been left unsaid in the series; startling images at the Gate are not verbally explained, but left only as iconography. While the FMA movie, The Gate of Shambala, attempted to delve further into this realm, it has served only to increase fan speculation about what the Gate “really” is and how it “really” works; the explanations were unsatisfactory even though the visuals were stunningly beautiful. It is unlikely that the “Truth” that Ed claims to have seen will ever be revealed to the viewers: it is something only Ed could see, as he was one of only a few to actually experience the Real of the Gate. As Baudrillard says, “It is always the goal of the ideological analysis [read: the fan interpretations] to restore the objective process, it is always a false problem to wish to restore the truth beneath the simulacrum” (27).
    Poot--tee--weet.

    Thursday, June 29, 2006

    Disability paper--I have no map

    Clumps of thought to explore, or The Amylea Clemons Method of Paper Writing

    “There seems to be a chasm between the medical knowledge of a condition, and how it impinges on academic progress.” (Report from Queensland University of Technology on ME/CFS in post-secondary ed)
    Primary texts: Compliance documents from two universities. Purdue and Florida vs Queensland
    Method: Close reading of the translation of ADA required material into web information on university sites.
    Goal: to discuss the attitudes, values, and assumptions that underlie the construction of official statements (read: “legally mandated statements”) of disability services at the university level. What ideologies and definitions of “disability” are embedded in the language of the document? (Here I’m thinking of J Blake Scott’s article on Confide home testing for HIV, where “normalcy” and WASP ideology are constructed despite attempts at empathy and political correctness.)

    Contextualization: ADA requirements, recommendations from ed.gov
    Frameworks:
    Use Mezzy’s terministic screens of interpretation of legal documents for own interpretations. Grammarian problems.
    Edward Schiappa’s Defining Reality asks us to consider definition not as finding an “essence” but as contextualized:

    It is not that X is Y, but that X should count as Y in context C. When we do this, however, we should ask “What are our shared purposes in defining X? What interests and values are advanced by competing definitions? Whose interests are being served by a particular definition and do we want to identify with those interests? What are the consequences of the ‘essential’ characteristics promoted by a definition, given that every category ‘valorizes some point of view and silences another’ (177-178).
    To what extent do the definitions in university “judicial” documents (documents that serve a legal function) serve one interest or another? What definitions are used, and what are the attitudes toward that definition? What are the attitudes toward the ADA in general, and how is the ADA definition presented (where, to what extent is it quoted, how is it explained, links?) What version of “disability” emerges from the university’s use of the ADA’s legal language? Who benefits from these definitions, and what attitudes emerge from those definitions? What consequences might there be?

    How is normalcy constructed in the documents? (Davis) What is “normal” for the university? How is “university” itself constructed in the documents? More importantly, how are these arguments made, and what authorities do they draw from?

    Support for close reading: AHEAD website’s comments and recommendations. Overview of judicial rhetoric research in disability studies. Criticism of university regulations for chronic illness in Australia. (three studies)

    Monday, June 26, 2006

    Found poems--literally

    I've been "cleaning" my apartment for the last week, in the process of rearranging furniture (read: "books") and I keep finding fragments of poems I seem to have written in strange places. I have no desire to lose these, but given my track record...
    Presenting, Poems Found in Amy's Living Room

    Prose poem: The month of May

    If it were warmer and my head were clearer, I'd do yoga on someone else's lawn at midnight. Why bother crying? The film makes it obvious: Icons link the unknown dead to the known, my desires to my dreams. The History Channel mutters at me things I already know and mixes these with sleep. The need to fly east drives my eyes to the clouds I believe I can reach--I used to fly.
    Why can't I ask about the star sickening my cheeks, my teeth, my gums? The scene was on the screen, and it bent my innocence back by degrees of horror and logic. If I ask, the door will be opened, but the words are coded too deeply in too many individuals who keep bleeding into each other, onto the floor which accepts their tissue and enlightenment ensues.
    The furniture is above ground and I cannot sit still.
    The door's wood feels fake, and its grainlessness makes me recoil my fist--I will not knock; I am not supposed to be here. The edges of my skin fade into the damp night, and being flashes for a moment: This is real, I am alive, and there is no one else who can hear my heartbeat.
    Infinity for a moment, the flap of a butterfly's wings remiding me that I can, in fact, burn in hell. A brick wall between you and God--18 inches--if it's not from the heart, it's not praise. Where is my evidence, my salvation, but in my ends?
    When I fall asleep, I tell myself lies about what will be--not the Beast or the bloody water, but of scenes of my own redemption in fractal forms. Sacred art, the cross around my neck, that snake I love for its unsealed mythology--worshiped representations shadowing the touchable. It is black or white or yellow. Be reverent as you circle round one another, triangles and stars and goats with piercing horns nailing him to a cross, driving through the varely holding sheath between This and That, the red on my sheet telling me it was more than a bad dream.
    Let's dance and revere some new myth. It's not about divinity or truth holding or an Englightement. It never was. This represents the blood and mine has been impure for so long that I keep asking the wrong questions, forgiving the wrong sin. I know it's not your fault.
    On the eve of the millenium, we'd have been under peach street lights, arguing about goodness and goddesses. I hold his body sacred and imagine his death and repentence playing on the lenses of my sunglasses. I want to dig my nails, my heels, my soul into him, but the star on his hand would burn me. He makes me narrate to myself all the time I do not have, rubbing together icons until they become my own raw fingers. Is it fear of death that makes me mourn a dead man's jump? Is it fear of dead things that makes me shudder in wonder or love? For a moment, silence the awe with another full moon and just sleep.

    Lincoln Hall (YES, Kari. THAT incident)
    Forbidden.
    Do not enter here.
    These doors cannot be opened again
    once they close behind.
    Trapped eternally in a place where
    your deepest temptations all reside
    and you break beneath the pressure of the brick walls.
    Once you enter
    you cannot exit.

    But what if someone finds you here?
    We brazenly played until midnight
    but it is forbidden
    and these old bricks hold many sins
    --a dirty bachelor pad
    smelling of old socks and of too much aftershave.
    Recklessness inside these stones
    older than the offenders' grandparents.
    Here, where the red-haired boy flips his personality
    on and off
    more easily than he does the lightswitch (crusty, moldy)
    that finally brings him darkness at 3 a.m.

    Here is where his secrets lie
    of the immoral deeds they speak of
    in inside jokes at the dinner table.
    This is where his decisions are made,
    where he'd rather not be
    because he hates masquerades,
    and it's all so confusing and chaotic
    in his cramped room here.

    (Insert comment about our lost innocence here).

    Blufton, Ohio (written 11/17/99)
    My own breath
    fogs my vision
    when I step out the door

    The morning is too bright
    so I can't see the light

    My eyes are still closed
    lost in
    that too real dream
    he left me with

    The sun shines through
    I can't find you.


    Ideology of Disability (Fall 1999)

    The heart swells
    it reaches out and moves beyond
    the confines of this wretched body
    it stretches to encompass the world--
    Love!

    Shrink smaller
    the pressure causes cringing
    shrivels the heart into the soul
    egocentricism and anger
    mix to hate another's life
    hate a soul, hate God's feeble creation.
    Survive.

    The Fabulous (A parody of "take my water")
    I'm having visions of your khaki pants hanging loose and suggestive and your silk shirts rolled up and your pink lips mouthing that word that makes the base of my spine shudder into swoons, and the pucker of your chin when a cigar is placed where my mouth should be.
    I'd make your life a satire, and end the brooding and open those blue eyes always lowered humbly in beauty. I hear you now, your voice in my inner monologue, my dialogue of me and me and now you, for certain words, the words I've heard you speak, now splice into my own. Those vices make me grin until saliva drips uneasily.
    I see you hate evil, you hate women and human emotions that weaken your alaredy low self-esteem. So short--you know what they say about the size of the chain. Those chained ringlets on your head--I fall down, spilling chi and feminism. Allen Ginsberg and your image are sensual combinations. I cannot help the chill.

    Fragment
    That stack
    later found under the carpet
    flattened,
    making its own book recording
    of our readings, never in my handwriting
    nous le savons plus que les mots sur le peau

    Fragment II
    Suddenly I can't remember all those water meanings
    eyes and miracles
    something about whales and instant storms
    Le centre--
    que veut-il dire
    quand nous dirons
    "returnez!"
    Il port un visage de la Morte.

    Fragment III
    Kiss the gall from her exchange
    save yourself from the hours between one and four
    (closed eyes, to shut from the fissions)
    Fear of death of dawn, the morning mother of the day.
    Proliferate, but not of sublimation, ecstacy,
    loving each other in chants.

    Beavers with Brains
    If you keep the door locked and admit you have no chance, you can be guilty without consequence. The liquid screens are communal, the doors are close together, and every key opens every door to reveal two big beds unruffled of their silks. When it begins to snow, I run, tank top straps icy already, to where the two stains meet, up and down, in a no-place, which transports us back in time, back inside. Back to the deep purple caverns, bright with romantic glittering diamonds. Wait, please, wait behind the clapboard. There by the stones is our rage, is our fate. The hunger borne of low steps, of a need to see the watering colors of the fog.

    Found poem (for real) in Robert Frost class (2004)

    It's much safer to resurect him.
    The people run onstage, then run way
    A collection fo virtues opens
    sounding of Judgement to
    the tawny meadow that truthfully faits
    un tempete. It cuts cross Hermes' purple sheets.

    Most absolute, that known which says with will "I make not!"
    most unconfused parent of opposites, most central tautness, across the chest.

    Speed on, bonds we speak of only once separated;
    post rivalry, post duel, poast the fade out snapped frame
    where the metal becomes the hilt
    where the weapon meets its sheath.

    Paper to write...sometime...

    Academics like to stake their claims on certain topics and arguments that they plan on working on in the future. These usually appear in conclusion sections of dissertations or books. Well, since I'm lightyears away from either of those, here is my claim on a topic that I think would go nicely at next year's ACA/PCA at the Hub in Boston.

    {FullMetal Alchemist: Theorizing Disability and Subjectivity} is the intellectual property of Amy Lea Clemons, PhD Candidate at Purdue University, West Lafayette, IN. Touch it and I'll sue.

    ...not that anyone would have taken it before me...but...you never know.

    I wish I could write it for Mike's class, but it has little to do with "Access" and more to do with social constructions of disability. After all, the only thing Ed and Al want to access is the Stone--they get information just fine because of Ed's military ranking.
    Hmmmmmmm, says the theorist.

    Oh what a tangled web we weave
    actually it's not we who weave it
    it's always already there
    and it's deception is that it makes itself disappear
    and convinces us we have the ability to unglue ourselves from it
    (Foucault)

    Thursday, June 22, 2006

    "enlightenment," ascendency, and Stargate discourse

    Positivism, the belief that scientific reasoning will lead to reality, or truth. An ideology founded by and in the period we call the Enlightenment, positivism focuses on human progress through validated versions of science and technology, the teleology of which is infinitely in the future.

    Mythologies: Narrative systems that seek to explore the nature of Nature, explain cause and effects, and prevent the breakdown of community (Rene Girard). Rituals do not emerge from mythology, but mythology from rituals; repeated actions meant to alleviate cultural tensions give way to stories that support those rituals. In Girard's formulation, mythology conceals the nature of ritual, which is the gratification of humanity's desire for violence, but Christianity, and the other four "enlightened" religions, reveal (apocalypse) the structure of ritual murder as a destruction of the Other and postponement of mimetic desire. In our post-Christian world, we no longer have the need to scapegoat and have no need to believe in mythologies that conceal the structures of culture. So says Girard.

    Stargate: SG-1-- A strange blend of positivism, humanism, and mythology. Dead myths are revived for their misunderstood truth, "gods" are sublimated to aliens (the Other), and human progress (as technology and democracy) is touted as the revelation. There are tensions here, though. Mythology is no longer ridiculed for its primitive notions of gods and goddesses; by making the stories "real," the human relations the rituals and myths attempted to conceal remain concealed--Christianity becomes yet another myth involving aliens.

    Whereas Girardian constructions of mythology present a hopeful future for humanity to recognize and thus correct our responses to the Other (human other), the narrative of Stargate presents mythology as yet another aspect of positivism, of human understanding, of Enlightenment. Furthermore, the "other" presented in in the series is problematical--nearly all of the characters from other planets are White English speaking peoples with mythologies stemming from a Western/Hellenic narrative.

    This understanding of mythology provides other problematical discourses when we speak of "justice" --the early Daniel-centric episodes feature positivist, "enlightened" arguments for democracy and a sympathetic understanding of the "other;" later episodes (season 5), however, create a new mythology, a mythology of the show itself in its creation of "ascendant" beings, Daniel's own ascendance through his understanding of humanity and the universe, and the pre-ascendant, extent of bodily humanity (the end that postivism seeks to locate) "Lantians," who created humanity in this galaxy.

    Why do we (at least a small portion of "we") need this new mythology? If Girard is correct, we should all be too Enlightened to fall back to mythologies--even mythologies that explain mythologies--because these stories are only ways to structure and justify human exclusion and murder of the Other. The shift in SG-1 that occured with the emergence of the "Ancients arc" discontinued the revelation of myth (A Girardian Move) that the first five seasons included. Daniel's increased militarization and his "fall" from ascendency have presented new arguments, new explications of familiar myths, and further proliferation of retrubutive justice.

    To further think about: Trials and justice in SG-1, the scapegoat mechanism, rhetoric of anthropology available, arguments for positivism and progress, the Ori in relation to recent religious rhetoric (rhetoric which is definitely NOT "revealed" in the Girardian Christian sense), and the acts of "revelation" narrative naturally requires.